Thursday, 26 June 2008

Food Issues

I know this is all about me and my issues and my insecurities – it doesn’t make it easier know this - and I need to air this.


Lilly has days where she will refuse to eat – anything. I try to ignore it and my repeating answer after is – I don’t run a café here – you eat when everyone else eats and you eat what we all eat.


Then there are the days that she eats like a horse – honestly. This morning she ate a bowl of rice bubbles, an apple and 3 bananas. Adrian had a cooked breaky about an hour after this and she pestered him until she secured an egg and a sausage from him.I have a large fruit bowl in the kitchen and I know I do encourage the kids to eat fruit whenever they like – but she does – a lot. Its not uncommon for her to eat a few bananas and apples after lunch and then again for dessert. I mean – where is it going?


I cannot give her anything sugary – she goes completely mad. Thankfully when we go out and she is offered softdrink or juice – she always asks for water – bless her. But watch the biscuits. Today she scoffed 4 shortbreads in as many second and then started in on the chocolate ones – but found she only liked chewing the chocolate off them.


I know of the theories – if you deny food or use it as rewards or punishments – then it will start a chain of events and issues with food – and its the last thing I want – especially for Lilly. Having grown up always fat – always overweight – nothing fitting and standing out in the crowd – I so don’t want it for her. I know I have an obsessive nature and its often difficult for me to curb it.


I get so angry and frustrated with her sneaking food into her room – she knows that I don’t want her to be eating things – and she sneaks them in – I found an empty packet of jelly crystals in her bed today and am forever taking Morgan’s school snacks ( muesli bars etc) away from her. I guess its difficult for her to understand that Morgan gets these things and she doesn’t.


Both the kids are on the side of solid – thankfully very active. Just reviewing it – I believe I have been on a diet now for the better part of 25 years. Help! Phew.. motherguilt – kick on in.

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