Age and I took a leap of faith earlier this year. We both knew his health was diminishing and that our suburban lifestyle had become a prison. Don't get me wrong, I loved my home, I loved the school the kids went to and our street, with its wonderful neighbours was incredible. I miss and mourn that time gone. But we had known for at least two years that things needed to change and we needed to stretch our legs again ... But its that old rut. ... The complacency of comfort and the allure of just letting thing lay.
It was such a blessing that we were able to sell the house so quickly, a bit of a heart wrenching activity for us to have to be apart while I worked and he trained for the Camino with Morgan, but one we knew would be worth it. It was the longest time in 24 years that we had been apart.... And then they went off to Spain... My heart was wrung out every day just waiting to hear or see a blog post from them. With Age off on his spiritual journey, I kept my distance - giving him space to find his path. gahh......... but enough of that.
We'd planned to come back from Europe and come straight into this house sitting role in Gympie just to rest and to reaffirm where we were going together and as a family. I had planned to work in supply teaching while up here - there are 7 school just in Gypmpie alone do I knew Id have no worries there. Age had planned just to kick back and enjoy the solitude of the trees and birds for the month.
From there, we had planned to do other house sits in areas along the Northern New South Wales coast to get a feel for different towns and where we might like to settle for a while. I'm a step away from getting full registration in NSW teaching.. I may still complete that process - its taken months already!
I guess that is still happening, with a few more complications thrown in for good measure.. But everything is possible..
I obviously cant work as the kids are with me and no-one to look after them if I go off to work. I do worry about finances, but at this point at times, I struggle to find my way round the house, so am in no position to be teaching in a classroom.
Despite all this....Feeling pretty blessed to be where we are in Gympie. Its a wonderful home with so much good energy. I'll do another blogpost with photos about it soon. The shame of course, is that its just over three hours drive one way to see Age in hospital. He can only manage ten mins or so before he flakes out. So.. The kids and I do alot of driving and I am getting to know this part of the highway well.
This post is a bit scattered.. Like my mind at the moment.
Know that I am ok.The kids are resilient and been such a support to me. I trust intuition and know Adrian is fine too.
We will work through all challenges as we always have, with open hearts and souls, honesty and each others best interests at heart.
As I have said before, there is no sides to take and no judgement. We have an 'is'. And all we can do is to work from there.
Thank you all our beautiful friends who have loved and supported us over the last week. The depth of my gratitude for your understanding and selflessness runs miles underground.
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